Today we took this little watermelon (daddy thinks he looks like a girl) for a test at the hospital, one we have been quite apprehensive about. The test was to try and see how much Harry is hearing with his hearing aids in. Now up until today we haven't been sure at all as to what our bug has been hearing or reacting to, we know he babbles away to us and himself but weren't too sure if he was startled by sounds or reacting to our voices
It turns out that hearing aids just aren't enough for Haribo and we need to be going down another route to give him sound. Unfortunately they didn't get the responses they were looking for and have decided his hearing loss is more profound than we first thought
We have been reffered to Southampton to start the tests and processes involved in getting Harry a cochlear implant. Our doctors are sure that this will give him an amazing level of hearing so he can gain access to speech, music and all those lovely sounds we take for granted! It involves a major operation most likely before Harry turns 1, which is daunting but amazing as he won't even remember it and should hopefully pick up speech from a very young age!
Today I felt sad, scared and happy all at once. I was sad that my son can't hear my terrible singing, scared for the operation but happy for the future and the thought of him hearing all the wonderful sounds the world has to offer him!
So tonight, as I write this I'm sitting cuddling my baby boy in his sleepy milk coma in absolute silence, realising that even with no sound or words spoken he knows how much we love and adore him and life's going to be just fine